Mood-o-meter

Lately my meditations feel kind of dull and a bit lifeless, but I don’t mind too much. Of course I like it when lots of stuff happens and I have material to post here but that’s just how it goes.
I did get some good news however in that the interrupted Gemstone course which I was attending will be resumed. It was stopped because of the corona measures but now they have bougt a large tent so the organizers have the room to accomodate the people. Also this means the Shamballa evenings will be resumed 😃

I’m very much looking forward to the next session on the 23rd of this month.🌸

Kundalini

Last Friday I came across a book about kundalini and sex energy. I just finished reading it and it was very interesting. The author explains a lot about kundalini, the chakras and the importance of sex energy in spiritual development. The only downside is that he does not explain what to do with the sex energy (Jing) in order to transform it into Shen.

Does it get transformed automatically when I do the Microcosmic Orbit? I’ll have to look into that.

Morning meditation

This morning I combined my light meditation with the Microcosmic Orbit again. It makes sense in my head; the Microcosmic Orbit focuses on the anatomy of the energy body within the limits of the physical body while the light meditation focuses on the relation between the outer self (ego) and our inner God (higher self\ I Am). I’m merely combining the two using the higher self as a source (or conduit) for the energy that I use in the Microcosmic Orbit.

The meditation felt so pleasant this morning that I had a bit of trouble stopping. The body was feeling soft and slightly buzzing with energy, while a sensation of warmth developed in my abdomen. I’m going to keep doing this for a while to see where it leads me.

Afterwards I did my affirmations, which I slightly tweaked:

I Am a happy and positive person
A powerful energy flows through me
I Am a gifted healer
I have a talent for channeling
I Am filled with love

Evening meditation

Tonight I sat down in my meditation room and started with a nice 25-minute Vipassana meditation by Tara Brach. Mind wandered quite a bit. Then I did a Light meditation in which I integrated the Microcosmic orbit elements again meaning that I imagine the energy flowing into my body through my heart center from where it circulates around the torso, up the back through the spine and down the front. It seemed to generate a sense of heat in the abdomen and felt good. At the end I collected the energy at the lower dantian.

I intend to make a new version of my guided Light meditation to include this but at the moment I lack the time.

Morning meditation

I always do a Light meditation in the morning and in the evening. This morning was interesting. I think I did this before but in the last part of the meditation where I picture white light flowing into my body though the heart center I normally just imagine my body being filled with it. Now I kind of combined it with the Microcosmic Orbit by picturing the energy coming in through the heart filling all the meridians in my body until they glow and then starting to circulate the energy; up the back through the spine (governing vessel) at the in breath and down the front of the torso (conception vessel) at the out breath. This felt very good. At the end I collect the energy at the lower dantian, behind and just below the bellybutton. I going to make a new version of the guided audio to include this.

See here for a good explanation about the vessels mentioned.

Evening meditation

I seem to be back to normal, meaning it’s a struggle to stay centered or positive during the day. Circumstances surely are not making it any easier. This evening’s meditation was okay though, mind was scattered but still the Light meditation felt good. The warmth in the chest returned which is interesting. I hope this means I’ll open up emotionally because I feel closed off again. At the same time I wonder if I should even bother because I’ve always been a very neutral person when it comes to emotions. Maybe I’m wanting something that’s not realistic. I know I can open up but usually this is in very emotional circumstances.

I’m blabbering; time to go to bed 😉🙏🌸