Mood-o-meter

I’ve been doing a daily microcosmic orbit (MCO) again for about two weeks now. The first week I noticed strong mood swings, mostly in the form of negative feelings. The capacity to remain in the observer position was diminished. Then, last Friday I started feeling ill. It is very rare for me to get ill to the degree that I consider calling in sick at work. So I took rest since it was the weekend anyway plus I had to wait at home for the result of the corona test (which came back negative). I paused my MCO’s for the time being. On Sunday there was a noticeable shift and I started getting my energy back. Starting Monday I was fully recovered and back doing MCO again. Also I gave a healing to a family member the same day in the evening followed by a remote healing which worked nicely. I don’t know if it was the MCO that caused the mood swings and sickness but I knew this could happen so I was alert. Another possible cause is the full moon last weekend which also causes upheaval each time as I notice that with myself and the people around me.

In general though, the capacity to ‘step out of’ the Dennis story seems to be slowly getting stronger. The funny thing is that this doesn’t necessarily mean I’m becoming a more pleasant or skilful person. The behavioural patterns remain, I’m just slightly less integrated or identified with them . This is a lot different than what I expected how this would develop. I expected a degree of happiness and bliss to arise. That’s possible and might still come, but for me it seems to be more of a neutrality (not to be confused with indifference). Longing for that bliss or happiness only puts my mind’s focus on the future which is not what I want. First I’ll learn to Be with What Is here and now, not trying to make it special. Just What Is , as it is.

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