I came across this anecdote and wanted to share it here since it seems very applicable in out current time.

A student once asked anthropologist Margaret Mead, “What is the earliest sign of civilization?” The student expected her to say a clay pot, a grinding stone, or maybe a weapon.

Margaret Mead thought for a moment, then she said, “A healed femur.”

A femur is the longest bone in the body, linking hip to knee. In societies without the benefits of modern medicine, it takes about six weeks of rest for a fractured femur to heal. A healed femur shows that someone cared for the injured person, did their hunting and gathering, stayed with them, and offered physical protection and human companionship until the injury could mend.

Mead explained that where the law of the jungle—the survival of the fittest—rules, no healed femurs are found. The first sign of civilization is compassion, seen in a healed femur.

By the same token, the first sign of an advanced civilization is not reading and writing, computer technology, robotics, nuclear weapons, music, or a high level of civil organization. Rather, the first and last sign of civilization is compassion.

How well we care for those who are wounded or injured, in body or soul; how well we rally around a person in their time of need, offering healing and comfort and protection and companionship until they are able to rise up and walk again, are the true signs of civilization.

Learning to live a life of compassion towards the weak, the vulnerable and the disadvantaged is the most important part of our civilization’s ‘coming of age’.


Let’s show each other – and ourselves – some compassion in these dire times.

Evening meditation

Tonight’s meditation was nice. I received a forwarded message suggesting how to approach the Corona crisis and it sounded like something I wanted to do. I’m not usually the type to send Love & Light to anything, because, well, I have trouble feeling love- I think. Nevertheless I started doing it and I asked for permission to join other light workers and light beings in the joint effort to heal Earth. In my mind the picture formed of a beautiful bright planet Earth whirling through the blackness of space. It looked vulnerable and delicate. I envisioned happy, healthy people living on it, living in harmony with each other and nature. Earth was surrounded by a web of light beings, all beaming down light and love to all creatures on the planet. It was nice and it felt good. After 15 minutes or so I continued to do a remote healing for a woman with whom I had an appointment this evening to do a healing. She was one of the 6 persons that contributed to the Ziemia ceremony with me. We reluctantly cancelled due to Corona doubts. The remote session felt good though.

Finally I sent shamballa to an old friend and I suddenly found myself lying curled up in her lap, enjoying the feeling of being warm, safe and cherished. Then I remembered the power of the Light that is within me and I turned it around, so now she was in my lap and I was protecting her the same way. I maintained and enjoyed this image for a while and went to bed.


I just received the below forwarded (Dutch) message containing some excellent suggestions. I know what I’ll be doing this evening 😊.

Lief mens,Zou je aub als je mediteert of bidt je in gedachten willen verbinden met vreugdevolle dingen. Je verbinden met andere mensen. Met andere Lichtwerkers. Richt je op liefde. Vraag je Hulpteam om begeleiding en bescherming als je gevoel zegt dat je bescherming nodig hebt.  Observeer de angst die corona opwekt. Observeer de pijn en stuur er heel veel liefde naar. Leg er een deken van warmte, van liefde over. Als veel mensen dit doen, staan we sterker. We vormen een netwerk. Dan helen we deze negativiteit. We transformeren het naar positiviteit. Naar Licht. Het is niet moeilijk. Gewoon als je bidt of mediteert. Je in gedachten verbinden met anderen en Lichtwezens. Warmte en liefde sturen. Vreugde. Als je wil mag je nog aan het virus vragen of het een boodschap heeft. Maar dat is aan jou. Stuur liefde. Samen helen we deze situatie veel makkelijker. Dank de Lichtwezens, de anderen en jezelf. Ook al weet je niet wie ze zijn. Misschien geloof je er (nog) niet in. Maar je bent krachtiger dan je zelf denkt. Je bent nodig. Je bent een Bron.
Dank je wel voor je aandacht en tijd.
Dit bericht mag doorgestuurd worden.
Bedankt alvast.

Crazy times

It’s been a while since my last post. Considering what’s going on in the world, it seems silly to be blogging about my spiritual activities. It’s just crazy how much fear is going around now. For me, it started out with facing some of my own fears, stepping out of my comfort zone. While I was in the middle of that, the institution where I work was hacked causing intense fear in me. While still recovering from that the Corona virus starts wreaking havoc in the world. It seems that fear is escalating, I’m wondering where it’ll end. (I channeled a while ago for myself that a period of fear was coming but Boy, I didn’t expect anything like this.)

Sometimes I think that, in order to really change human behavior on planet Earth and become awake beings, something really big would need to happen that would lead to a systemic failure of our political and economic system, but I never could think of anything that would do that on a global scale. Could this be it? Maybe. I expect though that this is not ‘It’ . I expect this thing to disrupt everything for a while and then it’ll go away. I see it as a warning, a wake-up call. Not that someone or something is being angry at us or anything like that, but just the first big result of a disturbed balance. Time to get our act together. There is a lot of suffering going on right now and I don’t deny that, but I hope this event will lead to a much needed reset of human thinking, where we are more considerate of the consequences of our actions for our fellow creatures and the Earth.

As for myself, I notice that meditation and energy work is harder for me now because all the Corona stuff keeps grabbing my attention. Lots of activities are being cancelled that I had planned and was looking forward to. This is all trivial however and can be made up for later. I just hope that the suffering will be as minimal as possible and that this thing will be over quickly.

May you and your loved ones be healthy and happy. May all beings be healthy and happy.

Evening meditation

Meditations have been a bit weak lately so I decided to go back to the roots again and do a longer session purely focusing on the breath and just Being. It was very nice and focus was good. It’s interesting that I’m able to be aware of the entire breath cycle and simultaneously be conscious of my whole body. This is a big difference compared to a few years ago. Sometimes I forget how much I’ve learned.


The Ziemia ceremony I did recently was very nice and I learned a lot by stepping out of my comfort zone. Now that this episode is over I’m looking for new avenues to get to new experiences and people. I came across an ad for a local spiritual healer close to my home and upon inspection of her site I saw she also gives workshops. I’ve signed up and I’ll be attending it next Saturday 😊.


The past weeks have been a period of ups and downs but I’ve been learning a great deal. The past few days in particular were a bit dark; a period in which self-esteem was even lower than usual, my rationality was strong thereby undermining my faith in the spiritual world. A certain pessimism is the result of that which makes me question why I bother making all this effort, confronting myself with my fears and all. But it’s not the first time this happens and I’ve learned that ‘this too will pass’. This doesn’t mean it’s easy in any way, but I just try to ride it out because I know it’ll go away. Seems like I’m crawling out of that again at the moment.

Last Monday I had a big presentation at work. Doing a presentation is something that is a phobia for me; it can trigger a full panic in me. I intended to deal with that fear once and for all so I signed up for a presentation at the next departmental meeting at work. I was in a position where I could dodge that presentation or choose to do it. Being a Warrior it’s not easy for me to avoid a challenge but I did just that. I couldn’t do it and I decided to build this skill gradually instead of exposing myself before a large audience, potentially aggravating the fear by doing so. So instead I’ll probably go and follow a course ‘how to present’ or something like that. I’ve been working on fears in many other occasions, but this one was a bit too much, for now.

Evening meditation

I lack the time for a long post but tonight was a bit unusual. I sat down in my meditation room and started out by listening to two delicate classical songs, they touched me. It was an experiment to get me to feel emotions, to open up. It seemed to work and after that I listened to this excellent track with crystal singing bowls. I became very aware of my whole body and could feel the waves of tingles going through my body, dancing as it were on the music of the bowls. I felt a bit detached from my body and for a moment it felt like my consciousness was moving into a large citrine crystal that was placed in front of me. It felt pleasant so I started the track again when it finished, it still felt good but not as strong in the first part. After that I did a Light meditation that felt quite strong. These longer sessions (this one was 1h:25m…) definitely have their benefit.

Evening meditation

The Ziemia ceremony last Saturday completely drained me of energy somehow, I was a wreck the whole Sunday. I played couch potato all day until the evening when I had to get somewhat active since the wife had an evening shift at work and well, we have to eat. As of today I seem to be recovering. I don’t know if I did something wrong energy-wise on Saturday but I’ve heard the same reports from my colleague healers. It was indeed very demanding in terms of energy. Anyhow, I had to move my shamballa night tonight to next Thursday. It was a tough call but I’m glad I did it, I wouldn’t have been at ease otherwise. Also that means I had time for a decent meditation tonight. I started out listening to a beautiful Alchemy crystal singing bowls recording and followed that up with a Light meditation which felt good and effective. It was about time.

Lesson learned

There are a few things I can share about the Ziemia ceremony that I helped facilitate last saturday, which I will do over the coming period as time allows.

First of all I learned (again) that sometimes things are very much NOT what they seem…
In the weeks leading up to the ceremony I grew more and more anxious because I was insecure about what I could contribute. The other participants all had visible, concrete skills in my eyes and I didn’t. I only have my healing of which I still am not confident in spite of all the positive feedback I received in the past. (In hindsight there also was a huge fear to be judged by people at that ceremony). It was not until 1 or 2 days before the ceremony that the anxiety subsided somewhat and I was looking forward to it again. So this is the mindset that I entered the ceremony with. I placed my seiza bench at the edge of the room so I had a place to sit when I did not have a task. Also, I kept a copy of the programme there so I could take a peek at it on the go, because I was too nervous to memorize it. The ceremony was opened by the organizer after which there was a 20-minute sound healing using crystal singing bowls. This was one of two occasions where the three present healers could wander through the room and give healing energy to the people attending. As I was seated at the edge of the room, it was logical I would start with the couple that was lying directly in front of me. As the sound healing started I noticed I was very anxious again, feeling scared and insecure. I looked at the couple and I couldn’t get myself to give them a healing, which includes touching for me because I always do that by placing my hands behind the ears. I was afraid of the reaction of the man and didn’t dare touch him. His partner was lying besides him, very obviously pregnant. This raised questions with me too, because I would like to put my hand on her belly for a healing but this is an action that is either highly appreciated or deemed inappropriate depending on the level of trust of the person. So I didn’t dare heal her as well.

I interpreted the resistance I felt as my own fear and insecurity.

Because I only had 20 minutes I decided to skip the couple and go into the room. I kneeled down behind the first person and gently put my hands behind the ears. The person did not open the eyes and was not disturbed by it, so my worry of that was unjustified in this case. I still was very tense though so the healing was messy in my head and didn’t feel very effective to me. Also I was kneeled which was painful for my toes so that was distracting. I continued to the next person and sat crosslegged behind her. When I put my hands around the back of her head, she didn’t react in any way so that was good. I noticed how different she felt compared to the previous person, but couldn’t describe that difference. It was like a heaviness. I gave her some violet flame energy and continued to the next person. She saw me coming and we exchanged a slight smile. I sat crosslegged behind her and again put my hands behind her ears. This person too felt different , a lot lighter that the previous one. This was interesting because this is the first time I’m treating strangers in a rapid succession and I was surprised that I felt these differences even though I was far from relaxed. The next person was a balled man with biker-like clothes. As I sat behind him I immediately thought of Archangel Raphael so I sent green healing energy into his body. Perhaps there was some physical malady present there but I wasn’t keen enough to think of asking for guidance what that was.

At a later stage in the ceremony there was a second timeframe where the healers could wander the room.

I decided to go back to the couple and try to give them a healing again. I sat down behind the man but I couldn’t get myself to begin. I was afraid of his reaction. The same with his pregnant wife. I decided to try and give him a healing without touching him but even that wouldn’t work. Eventually I just decided to skip them alltogether, letting go of the idea that everyone in the room must get a healing.

Why am I sharing this? Because I interpreted the resistance I felt with that couple as my own fear and insecurity. This was not the case however. One of the other healers did actually approach the couple to give them a healing and it ended up being a nasty discussion. The man wasn’t interested and rejected all good intentions. Probably the ceremony was not what he expected of it and maybe he regretted coming. The man’s behavior was quite unpleasant. When I heard about this after the ceremony I realized that the resistance I had felt was not coming from my fear or anxiety, but from them. It appears I was actually following my intuition without realizing it. It’s a shame that it kind of put a shadow over the entire evening for me because I didn’t realize this until afterwards. It’s a very valuable lesson – for the other healer too, because she realized she had the same intuition about the couple but approached them anyway because she felt everyone should get a healing – which is the limited brain talking.

So the big lesson here was to trust my feelings more. I need to pay more attention to them. That being said , discerning where the feelings are coming from – someone else or me – is something I have to learn.