Microcosmic orbit #78 of 100

This 20-minute MCO session was late in the day at 22:00 because we’re preparing for the drive home tomorrow.I sat on the seiza bench in front of the caravan holding the green Aqua Lemuria. It seems to calm me down and soothe emotions. I used the guided audio. It was a pleasant session , focus was okay but not like at home. Sensations were normal , subtle but present. Feeling nice and centered afterwards. Looking forward to getting home and doing longer sessions again in my own room.

Microcosmic orbit #77 of 100

I was seated kneeled on the seiza bench in front of the caravan. I planned to do a short session of 10 minutes. I just had breakfast and normally it is not conducive to energy work if the body is busy processing a fresh meal, but I tried to make use of the opportunity anyway.
I started with a couple of minutes of quieting the mind by being aware of breathing and sensations, imagining energy coming in at the in breath.
I then started the MCO using guided audio. Again there was no visualisation of what the energy looks like, I was focused on sensations. These were similar to yesterday ; a subtle sense of presence flowing from spot to spot , sometimes accompanied by warmth. The stickiness at the 3rd eye had returned and the resistance when going from the 3rd eye to throat and from kidneys to neck was back. After the session I let the warmth of the collected energy linger in my lower dantian and let it seep slowly into the crystal ball there (that is how I visualize the storage in the lower dantian).I felt nice after that and I decided to prolong the meditation by doing a 15-minute set of ‘I Am’ affirmations by Kenneth Soares because I’m actively trying to replace negativity in my mind like doubt, fear and regret by their positive counterparts confidence, trust and acceptance. 

Microcosmic orbit #76 of 100

I was seated kneeled on the seiza bench on front of the caravan. I planned to do a short session of 10 minutes. I just had breakfast and normally it is not conducive to energy work if the body is busy processing a fresh meal, but I tried to make use of the opportunity anyway.
I started with a couple of minutes of quieting the mind by being aware of breathing and sensations, imagining energy coming in at the in breath.
I then started the MCO using guided audio. Again there was no visualisation of what the energy looks like, I was focused on sensations , which were similar to yesterday ; a subtle sense of presence flowing from spot to spot , sometimes accompanied by warmth. The stickiness at the 3rd eye had returned and the resistance when going from the 3rd eye to throat and from kidneys to neck was back. After the session I let the warmth of the collected energy hang around in my lower dantian and let it seep slowly into the crystal ball there (that is how I visualize the storage in the lower dantian).I felt nice after that and I decided to prolong the meditation by doing a 15-minute set of ‘I Am’ affirmations by Kenneth Soares because I’m actively trying to replace negativity in my mind like doubt, fear and regret by their positive counterparts confidence, trust and acceptance. 

Aqua Lemuria

While on holiday in France I bought a bunch of crystals which I will spend a post on next week, but one stone I want to post on in advance: a piece of emerald-green Aqua Lemuria the size of a fist. I bought this stone in Sarlat at ‘Cristeax & Couleurs‘ , a seemingly high-end shop with three stores in France. I saw this piece and it attracted my attention. When I picked up the stone it felt soft and soothing, calming. I liked it. I had never heard of it, and the employee (who was very much into energy) explained it is volcanic glass from Sumatra and they are the only importer in Europe. It’s supposed to be a stone of extremely high energy. It was quite expensive as everything in that store, but since the whole store was clearly selling only top notch stuff I decided to buy it.

After returning at the camp site I was searching for information on that stone and could find little about it. Most of the time it is stated that it is ‘made from volcanic ash’ , implying it is man-made. This disappointed me. For me it is important that a stone is a produce of nature.

Still in doubt if I should go back and try to trade the stone, I put it beside my pillow at night. I slept well and had two dreams that I could remember in the morning, this has not happened to me in a long time. Also I’m feeling more emotionally stable since yesterday but that may be a coincidence. I’m going to keep the stone and see how this develops.

Backlit by a phone , the strange lines in the glass are visible.
Only in direct light the deep emerald green colour is seen.

Mood-o-meter

It seems I’m slowly crawling out of the doubts and negativity that has been dominating my experience lately. Have to be very careful with mind content , I tend to fall back into thinking patterns of self-pity , feeling victimized by the world etcetera whereas I’m the one that is actually creating it. So mastering thoughts and emotions is key.

Microcosmic orbit #75 of 100

The weather is nice so I sat on my seiza bench in front of the caravan.
I started this 30-minute session with quieting down the mind and collecting energy from my surroundings into the lower dantian for a few minutes. Then I started the guided audio and began the MCO. I used normal abdominal breathing and contracted the pelvic floor muscle at each exhale. With the guided audio the orbit is slow, so I went from one center to the next in the course of a breath cycle. I noticed that, just as last time, I didn’t visualize the energy anymore. Instead, I fully concentrated on the physical sensations. I felt a presence moving from spot to spot , sometimes combined with warmth. The resistance I usually feel when going from 3rd eye to throat and from kidneys to neck is slowly fading. It was a good session and I felt energized afterwards.

Microcosmic orbit #74 of 100

I sat in the car parked next to the caravan because of a thunderstorm . I started with an attempt to say a necessary goodbye, I expressed heartfelt thanks for everything and wished the person well. Until we meet again- be it this life or a next. It felt like it worked.

I then started the MCO, going from one energy center to the next in each breath cycle. There was a sensation of movement and warmth. At the end I realized I didn’t visualize the energy, I was focused on the sensations. Fine. Session felt good and I stored the energy in my lower dantian. In this session I was holding a piece of green Lemurian Aqua (it’s volcanic glass from Indonesia. I bought that today in Sarlat.) 

Mood-o-meter

I’m wallowing in negative emotions the last few days feeling bad about the world and myself ,but this is leading nowhere good. I know it is a matter of choice. I’m looking for things to be thankful for. They are there and it depends on my choice if I acknowledge them or not. Working on it with some success. Let’s keep it up.

Energy

I was lying in a bunk in the caravan feeling quite miserable. Feeling down , my back hurting between the shoulder blades from sleeping in the caravan , and it was raining. I decided I’d try to send some energy from my lower dantian to my back. I imagined releasing some energy and let it flow down via the root up the back to the spine between the shoulder blades. I could feel the warmth flowing. I imagined my back being healthy and supple.

Don’t know yet if it helped, but it was a surprising sensation and my abdomen is still warm as I write this.