Started out with this guided meditation in Insight Timer which was a tip from a friend: Tantric Meditation To Experience Oneness.
I liked it, it is well executed but I could not keep my concentration. Will try it again soon. Followed it up with this collection of excellent I Am affirmations , also in Insight Timer. It can also be found on YouTube.
Finally I did this one:”Move from ego to soul awareness”. Also a very good meditation. But somehow they don’t bring me closer to the experience of oneness that I know is our true reality. What’s holding me back?
I know that the small self cannot wake up, it does not have the capacity. It is awareness that stops identifying with the small self , so I know “I” cannot wake up. Why won’t awareness wake up?