This afternoon I meditated for 30 minutes, started out with a 5-minute guided meditation that instructs to observe emotions come and go and don’t judge them. I needed that because I was in a dark mood again today. I needed meditation to get a bit centered again where usually I am clear enough during the day to not get embedded in strong emotions. When the meditation ended I continued to sit for about 25 minutes. I felt somewhat better afterwards but I need more time to meditate in longer sessions.
It’s difficult for me to have these emotions where you think something should not be as it is, and let them be without doing something about it. I have a strong urge to keep looking for a solution, I guess that’s the male left-brain curse. Letting go of (imaginary) control and surrendering to What Is is the solution , but this is going to take time and effort.