The last few days have been tough and it’s not over yet. I was warned recently that a period of fear was coming and this has turned out to be very true. It’s amazing to see how my mind will take what’s going on and go wild with making the worst possible story for me to worry about. I notice I’m much better equipped now to handle that stress but it’s still very challenging. Also it has shown me how I’m still very much attached to being perceived as a good professional, much more than I thought I was.