Feeling somewhat down lately , having trouble ‘carrying’ al this emotional stuff around and keep observing it instead of identifying with it. Sometimes I think that this is required for growth , I hear this also from other people but I also hear from good sources that spiritual growth is also possible from joy. Why do I choose to grow by suffering? The Book of Mastery also states this suffering is not necessary but does not say how one can grow through joy instead of pain. To be continued.