While doing my Light meditation this morning I realized I was trying to control my experience. The light in my body should feel healing and strong. The golden sun in my heart should feel warm and loving. A feeling of anxiety arose and I didn’t like that so I tried to push it away. I noticed this and it’s preconceptions and expectations at work. In a sense I’m denying my experience. So instead of trying to control or color my experience I tried to focus on the visual image of the light in my body and the sun in my heart, without generating a specific feeling to go with that. It was relaxing , I’ll try it again next time to see how that goes.